Missing Utah

Do people who blog articulately spend a lot of time composing their thoughts, or do they ramble and edit as they go? Me, I ramble and edit. But then, I haven’t been accused of any degree of articulation. Enough of this! To our subject: getting my family back to Utah!

I dislike Los Angeles. It’s taken some time for that to crystalize in my brain. (“I’m sorry. You’ve tested positive for brain crystals.”) But I believe LA may well be the most over-rated…

Wait. have I ranted this before? Traffic, overpriced housing, dearth of seasons, etc? Well, if I hadn’t before, I just summarized it nicely.

I want to get back to Utah. I want to be closer to my family, where my daughter can play with any number of cousins, and where we could afford to own a home.

I’ve applied to, I believe, 4 different jobs in the Utah and Salt Lake counties since last night, all of which I’m a pretty good match for. I’d love nothing more than to fly up there and cut a swath of interviews.

I also asked my manager what the chances are of being allowed to telecommute from another state. We already have two full-time telecommuters, though they’re both in LA, a third that is part-time in another state, and our website’s primary programming is outsourced to a team in LA. So it’s not without precedent.

We’re paying $1420 a month in rent. That’s a Utah house payment EASY. With the savings, I could afford to fly to LA once a month on my own dime for any face-to-face meetings.

Do I care that it would essentially eliminate any chance of me moving up the ladder at LTB? No. It does not. That particular ladder doesn’t go where I want to go. And as you get closer to the top, it’s clearly marked “THIS IS NOT A STEP.”

But keeping my current job and telecommuting… I dunno. Part of me wants to finish this current project I’m on, then wash my hands of the whole company and move on. They’ve gone a different route than what I suggested in terms of software development and hardware upgrades, and I don’t want to be here when the storm hits. Well, the storm actually hit TODAY, and I mostly washed my hands in its abundant rain, but I think more storms are surely in store.

I feel like Dr. Malcolm in Jurassic Park — I can’t say exactly WHY the route we chose will bring doom on us all, but the theory holds true. Today we saw the first glimpses of it during a two-hour email outage. Tomorrow: bloody limbs smacking the window.

(For the curious: I said upgrade the software first, THEN upgrade to the new server hardware. I said to get off of the Windows environment and onto LAMP (Linux-Apache-MySQL-PHP). They chose differently. So, despite hours of testing last night, our SMTP server failed us today when the load got too heavy. And because the software hasn’t been reconstructed to an object-oriented model, we couldn’t just flip back to a previous build — we would’ve needed to go back and change dozens of scripts like we did when we changed it last night.)